Our little princess is finally home!
I had a very traumatic delivery experience in the hospital but I am just grateful that I am now home with my daughter. She's already a week old in this photo, because we had to stay in the hospital for a week to treat an infection she caught. As a first time mom, it was very scary seeing your newborn baby go through different kinds of laboratory tests, having to look at nurses/medtechs poke needles to extract blood, or inject medicine in her little arms... and my hormones were just all over the place, not to mention I was alone in the hospital because we weren't allowed any watcher because of the stupid pandemic.
I had undergone an Emergency C-Section because of some complications with the baby. And my dilation just wasn't progressing. They tried to induce labor but the baby's just not feeling it. Her heart rate goes up whenever I have contractions. It was the most excruciating pain I have experienced in my entire life. My mind keeps telling me "I can do this", but my body just wants to give up. My body was trembling from pain. It just knows it couldn't handle it anymore.
On July 28, 2020, this beautiful baby girl was born. Her name is Zheana Brielle :)
She caught an infection in the blood when she was born so we had to stay at the hospital for a week so she can be treated. TMI but she puked blood and had blood in her private parts. I was terrified. I just want my baby to be okay. I was just crying the whole time, even had an argument with the doctor. I believe it was my hormones. I couldn't understand my emotions.
I was placed in a ward with other ladies who had just given birth as well, and we all didn't have anyone to assist us because we weren't allowed any watchers.. so we helped each other. Girl Power!
I was the newest in the ward then, so I needed the most help. I was just relieved my baby wasn't with me for 2 days because I couldn't move my body, what more hold and breastfeed her. They gave Bree to me 2 days after I had given birth and my body was still aching, but I managed.
I didn't know breastfeeding could be so painful. My nips had wounds and chips. They were really sore that I was advised to stop direct breastfeeding for a day and just pump instead. But I was determined to breastfeed and was very happy I was abundant with breastmilk when Bree arrived. :D
I had 30 minutes of sleep in between our breastfeeding session and I was just exhausted as hell! I genuinely thought I was prepared for this but no I wasn't. I had a lot of breakdowns because of exhaustion and hormones.
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